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DadiNBabi
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Country: United States
State: New York
Interests: Sharing the best time of mi life wit mi precious Babi
Expertise: Doing the best i can to show that i care.
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Member Since:
6/6/2002
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| i miss u soo much... i just cant stop this..... all i remember is all the fun n crazy time we had... like wen u taught mi how to swim...u were there for mi wen i learned how to ride a bike, sung whitey songs to mi, spend many hours on the fone, going crazy w/ mi, drawin mi cutie pictures, helpin mi out w/ hws every small n big things u were there for mi.. n it just breaks my heart that i did such a thing.. i duno wat to say realli im makin myself lookin stupid but i never realli care wat ppl thinks about myself... how did i let all this slip mi by... i kno sum ppl treats mi w/ luv n pride but realli my heart just belong to u n i realli miss those fun days even tho we onli went out once a month but it was the most memorable for mi like wen we went swimmin at ymca and this asian guy yelled at mi.. i just looked into ur eyes and i bursted into tears like i was in a asthma attack...but u were there for mi to comfort mi....or like wen u bought mi to forest hill and i felt sick after eating japanese we went outside and i vomitted it all out lmao...or wen we went to the beach n u carried mi on ur shoulders scared the livin shit out of mi....and u always call mi boo boo chan or boobies or just say nextel tel.... lmao tats cutie.... i wud do anything for u i wud stop hangin out w/ steff n shirley or any of dem....i duno wenever i write in xanga i always cry.. i hope my eyes dun get puffy tomo since its christmas i realli do wish u havent leave | | |
| oh my god i cant stand this anymore....im fuckin sittin here crying my eyes out.. yes i do love the pain alright i love it like shit...im fuckin dying in school and fuckin dying inside.. yes i do love the attention and it doesnt fuckin matter anymore!!! im sick and tired of this shit thats going inside me....and im scared that oneday i cant bare this shit anymore and imma do the extreme.. soo dun fuckin shit on mi..... look at me im full of anger bc i dun want my inner feelings to come out soo i wont burst into tears and show my weaker side of me im fuckin trembling now.....its my life i cud do watever i want if i wnan fuckin kill myself its none of ur business anymore and yes fern i got wat ur point alrite dun fuckin be a puss and hide from me that means u still aint cool with me.. if u want to me get over myself u shud also do the same... anyways theres no sense of arguing online.. and if we want the truth rather than just be clueless for the rest of our passing days we shud just sit down and talk about it than doin all these hide and seek games...anyways i been sayin i wish i never met u i wish i never met u soo i wont feel this pain soo i wont feel this lost inside mi i wish i never met u i wish i never sat on ur table i wish u never said "i love u" to mi i hate all these shit.. i duno how u made such a big significant part of my life that breaks mi down everytime i think about it.... | | |
| 4 more days left till 12/20 wen i met my true love that gave mi so much grace.. i remember we walked together afterskool.. melinda asked mi n fern to walk her to the dentist..we're like ok got nutthin to do anyways after walkin her back mi n fern went down division street.. and hes like hey celena i wanna tell u sumthing.... i got all scared must be bad news i thought bc why say i wana tell u sumthing most ppl just say it.. and he went like this "I like you" im like ehhhh confused and i was thinkin like as in fren or like as in gf/bf?? never had one before soo i duno anything.. and he went again "i like u alot" i just looked at the floor and kept walkin... then we walked by the f train station i didnt want him to go yet until i understood wat he meant.. n i was like "sooo wat u wanna do about it?" hes like "well i dun wanna ask u out bc its almost christmas vacation" im like "ehh ok??" lolz soo funny how we got together.. sometimes i feels like/talk like im still with fern even though we're not.........i think i gone crazy like i want it sooooo badly that i just hallucinate i guess its normal mayb | | |
| 98 degrees MY EVERYTHING bc truely fern u are my everything....i love u 4ever
Verse
The loneliness of nights so long
The search for strength to carry on
My every hope had seemed to die
My eyes had no more tears to cry
Then like the sun shined from up above
You surrounded me with your endless love
And all the things I couldn't see
Are now so clear to me
Chorus
You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything
Verse
Now all my hopes and all my dreams
Are suddenly reality
You've opened up my heart to feel
The kind of love that's truly real
A guiding light that'll never fade
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
For the love you give and won't let go
I hope you'll always know
Chorus
Bridge
You're the breath of life in me
The only one that sets me free
And you have made my soul complete
For all time
For all time
Chorus
everytime i listen to this song it just reminds me of you and how u became my everything i always wanted
"The loneliness of nights so long
The search for strength to carry on
My every hope had seemed to die
My eyes had no more tears to cry" Since you left everynight i felt loney and just dull.. I wanted to be happy again but i lost it all...When you came back for thanksgiving vacation i couldnt stop crying.. sometimes i noticed that i ran out of tears.. and my face was all swollen
"You surrounded me with your endless love
And all the things I couldn't see
Are now so clear to me " You did surrounded me with ur endless love and i thank u soo much for wat u have given mi.. and all the things i couldnt see in the beginning wen we were together is now soo clear to me wen i lost u
"Every night I pray on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything "I stop praying long time ago bc i think i sinned too much.. n i dun deserve to be forgiven or hear out
"You've opened up my heart to feel
The kind of love that's truly real
A guiding light that'll never fade"You did open my heart and experience true lovd.. and you became my light n my love for u will never fade bc u are truely my everything i always wanted | | |
| im sooo confused.....i know i love fern with all my heart but we cud never work it out... like before n after we're just have a lot of conflicts w/ each others.... but i do love him soo much and i wud wait for him and do anything for him... a lot of ppl told mi to move on and just forget him.. but i duno why i cant do it i think of fern all the time... i really wanna talk to him again at least once...i miss fern sooo much... and im doing really bad in school failed math n physics with 60s average came out to 75 gotta work harder... sooo i decided all my time wud just be dedicated to work and no one/nuthhin esle.....<3 wish i was there | | |
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